To My Friend

This is 4 my Friend...Me writing in public forum to let him know how much our F'ship means to me..oose meri dosti pe vishwas nahi hai..

Dosti gazal hai gungunane ke liya,
Dosti naghma hai sunane ke liya,
Ya wo jazba hai jo sabko milta nahi,
Kyoki hosla chahiye ise nibhane ke liya.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.---

When you make mistake in a relation, not sure about the wheather it was mistake or not, but when it turns out to be sour, you always regret for doing it. Out of hundreds kind of relations, for me ,friendship remains on top. Or I dare to say , it is the only relation which is natural (unlike blood relation).

One more on human relationship’s…..no it has got no sad ending…J Its about friends n friendship….but yes its special coz I am taking about friendship ( not love ) between opposite sex…between men n women….and I believe…Good relationships aren't accidents.

I had a friend….with whom I had a fantastic friendship….we shared everything…I shared with him my joys, sorrows, my personal life, my professional life…everything. He was very good listener….very patiently used to listen n advise me....but mostly we used to joke a lot…I used to tease him…and we shared very warm relationship….but I was very sure that its not Love…we never want to spend life with each other….so Love was out of question….it was just plain friendship…we were in different cities…still managed to stay in touch….

I ask him to get me something, i tell him any damm thing. Mostly i hesitate to ask anyone to get things for me...but as we shared such gr8 comfort level I didn't give it a second thought.. I don't know him much longer, but i felt jitna bhi janti hoon kafi hai jaan ne ke liye.. We talked about love, personal, professional life n what not...with the time layers of talks get opened and relationship become more transparent. He many times felt my comfort level to be akward, but enjoyed too.

I make sure in a day to spend time with him n we talk as we always used to...We are far but we stay in touch...I think I needed him as friend more coz I used to share all my heartbreaks with him and he patiently used to advise me…he could listen to whatever I talked…..and somewhere I got this thought ki if we got such great understanding than cant we be life partners!!!!! But than I thought NO don’t want him to b my hubby coz than will not b able to share things I share now…..:-)

He was someone I held high in my mind...he could do no wrong, although on more then one occasion, I would give him a piece of my mind and pick on him...I wanted the best for him, I wanted him to succeed, I wanted him to think big, feel good, reach for the stars, and me to be there to hand it to him. He was someone I loved with every fiber of me, that love was not a love shared by two lovers, but by two people who were connected somehow, to unknown reasons. I loved him as much as I would have loved my daughter, I loved him as much as I loved myself. There was nothing on this earth I would not do for him. It was a one way street for ever. He did love me back, his way, behind the many walls, unable to ever trust me fully.I really think, it is harder to lose a best friend, then it is to lose a lover. When you lose a lover, there are steps you take, to get over the pain, but when you lose a best friend, there is nothing on this earth that can make you feel better, even sane.

I care 4 u my friend, i could not explain u, why i care 4 u so much. I just wanted to see him happy. I really would go out of my way for him, and I had no problem doing it, because I felt like he wanted to be with me. I’ve basically always been the kind of person that gains happiness from bringing it to those whom I care for. Why this care n tanderness is always questioned why ????????? Log kyon nahi samjh pate hai...

You see, I may not open up to people very easily, so they may not be able to learn all that much about me at first, because that’s at least something I can control. What I’ve never been able to control is how someone effects me, I might not be showing them how much I care for them, but my heart is there, it’s involved, and if I spend enough time with someone, they bring me to some level of happiness, whatever it happens to be, something clicks, and I find myself caring for them, usually a lot. It hurts me very deeply for that sort of love to be misconstrued, for it to be taken as something carnal

My friend and I are having problems. I don’t feel that he understands where I’m coming from when I say the things I do. I get the distinct impression that he’s concerned that I only pretend to care for him because I’m interested in him for something a lot more than the friendship we’ve had. I don’t really have any way of convincing him of my motives, I can only point to the past between us, I’ve not done anything that I would consider out of the boundaries of friendship. Maybe he feels differently,

To me affection between friends is essential. Caring for each other, and showing that you care, is a crucial difference between someone that you simply spend time with, an “activity partner,” and someone you consider a friend. When it comes down to it, I love them both, but in quite different ways. I love my friend as my friend, I would love my boyfriend as my boyfriend, it is easy for me to understand, just perhaps not as easy to explain.

Yes, love and friendship almost seem one , almost blended. But there is one subtle and major difference. Love requires certain commitments to each other. Ofcourse, a friend is loyal,honest, helpful to other, but at same time not to be outdone in friendship the other friend do not expect any commitment towards him/herself.

Right now I think my friend and I need time, I want for us to be able to talk about our difficulty, I want for us to be able to get this worked out, because I want for us to be able to go back to the friendship that has brought certainly me, and hopefully him, a considerable amount of happiness.I know with the passage of time he will understand me and my genuine feelings.

I hope my Friend will read tis..
Friends tell me Am i rong sumwhere ?

:)Dr. Cutie Pie